The ups with the downs

I woke up early today. Which may not sound too unusual, but it is, as for the past few days I’ve been going to bed so late, I can’t help but sleep until at least 7! But this morning I had a nightmare, and woke up early. In tears, and feeling wretched.

Many hours later, when I awoke the BH with a cup of tea and climbed back into bed for our cuddle, he asked what he’d done wrong (he knows 9 out of 10 of my nightmares are because he’s a cad in my dreams!). After telling him, instead of reassuring me with sweet words, he asked if his floozy had been good looking. Hmmph, he’s turning into a cad in life too!

Not all men are making me insecure though. My boss Tom, is fast turning into my personal gallant. When I started working for him I worried I wouldn’t be as good as his other secretaries (though maybe the fact they worked out the wages manually should have hinted they weren’t as hot as I’d worried). Tom’s often said I’m doing well, but this morning he made me feel great – without even saying anything especially nice! He’s starting something new, and instead of asking if I’m up to designing the company logo, sorting the paperwork to form the company, and creating a website, he simply told me what he was after. I know it sounds daft that I’m so pleased, but I often feel I have to persuade people of what I’m capable of, and because of the way he did it I know he has faith I can do anything! Except… I can’t get the domain name he wants, it’s gone already, ho-hum and fiddle-sticks but hardly my fault.

And seeing as I was busy at work for several hours this morning, that left the BH home alone with his boundless energy. I arrived home to find the office empty and a new wooden floor laid, wow I need to go out more often! Of course the kitchen was overflowing with office stuff, making lunch rather solitary as we each ate behind a box or two.

Unfortunately nothing got done this afternoon, as the weather is worse than ever. Did I mention our summer finished some weeks ago? Definitely feels like our seasons are arriving earlier this year, and that’s not me talking, that’s our Beech Tree already dropping its nuts. (Umm sounds almost dirty! Sorry, my mind, not yours I’m sure ;o))

Anyway back to the point in hand, guilt. The days are sweeping by and the children are sitting around too much, but as the BH says, the rain is washing the guilt away nicely.

Hopefully my tomatoes will ripen before Christmas arrives, which reminds me I must start thinking about presents – you know how time flies…!